I was told, at one point after I started talking to people on Tumblr, that my blog was all porn and not anything about me. One of the biggest reasons is that I’ve got other places to vent about my life. The biggest reason I don’t put much of myself out here is that I’m seriously afraid of my day job finding out. I’ve got a job with an actual morality clause. I am not sure how much that would actual impact me.
If I haven’t made it clear, I am a complete, total, and utter fuck up! If there is a way for things to be screwed up, I will be the one to find it. I took my current position knowing I could do anything for six months to a year. At this time, I’ve been there over six years. I am starting to lose my mind. I don’t know who I am and what I want. I think I am actually starting to reach the point where I’ve given up. This isn’t me, but I’ve become extremely passive in my life.
Sorry! I’m not sure why I’m feeling so cruddy and I really don’t know why I’m shared it all over you.